We saw him this past weekend. I took some pictures of the children with Push the talking trash can,.
Friday, March 28, 2008
She hated this picture. However, I don't believe that she ever took a bad picture. We buried our beautiful Laura Leigh today. This will be the second baby sibling that I have buried in my life time.
I believe with all my heart that my brother has been with me this entire time. I have faith that he excepted the gospel into his life when Chris and I went to the temple and done his work for him. I think that he will be among the people in heaven that were waiting for her to arrive. I know she will love my brother as I have loved them both. I find great comfort in that.
We had planned a trip to Disney with our families earlier this month. We were to leave today. There was alot of talk as to 'should we still go or stay'. We have decided to still go. We really think that Laura would have said please take the children and go and don't worry about what anyone has to say.
We will be gone for a few days. I will post more on my return. I leave with you part of a poem that my sister put on her blog for me.
Do not stand by my grave and weep.
I am not there,
I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints upon the snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain and
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush,
I am that swift uplifting rush,
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft star that shines at night.
Do not stand by my grave and cry, I am not there, I did not die. I’m Free
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Sunday, March 23, 2008
I took the tag from http://www.adventuresofthereluctanthousewife.blogspot.com/
Thanks, it was fun
What were you doing 10 years ago?1998?
I was taking care of my brother who had cancer. He died April 15,1998. I still beat myself up for not be able to save him with my magical powers and fairy dust.Looking back on it know. I had just had a huge fight with my parents and moved into my boyfriends house. One week later we found out that the cancer was back. I didn't even flinch, I just went straight to the room packed all my stuff and went straight home. I never moved back with him, we never talked about it, we dated for two more years. It was a strange relationship that I will have to write about another time.
Name 5 things from today's to do list:
1. Put in 8 hours at work.
2. Get my scrapbooking stuff together for the crop tonight.
3. At least spend dinner with my husband that I haven't talked to allweek.
4. Go to crop and hang out with the peeps.
5. Maybe wake up my husband when I get home for alittle TLC, since my children will be at Grandma's
Name 5 Snacks you enjoy:
1. Anything made by Sarris (best candy in world) (www.sarriscandies.com)
2. white trash
3. blondie with no nuts
4. sour cream and onion anything
5. brusters ice cream
5 things you would do if you were a Billionaire:
1. Buy a house
3. Be a stay at home mom
4. Buy a really great summer home
5. Pay off my father's house
Name 3 bad habits:
1. eating unhealthy
2. expections are to high for myself and everyone else
3. spoiling my children
4. bossing my husband around
5. putting it off until tomorrow
Name 5 places you have lived:
1. Confluence, Pennsylvania
2. Farmington, Pennsylvania
3. Brunswick, Georgia
4. St. Simons Island, Georgia
5. Brunswick, Georgia
Name 5 Jobs you have had:
1. CNA for different nursing homes
2. Disc Jockey for my own company
3. PBX operator for a hotel
4. Night Auditor for a hotel
5. General Cashier for a hotel
Friday, March 21, 2008
With no where to go
I want a place I can be myself
I need a place to call my own
Missing my family
Missing my friends
Just wanting to check in again, and again
Daily life I'd like to see
Rantings I'd love to read
Pictures to cute for words
Recipes I'd love to hoard
New people, old people
Some friends, some family
Some strangers I just met on the internet
No formal conversations
No requirements at all
Memories of life
Future plans of my life
News, books, movies
Our comings and goings
It's all up to me what I write
It's a release
It helps me let go
Of the sadness
It helps me announce
So come one, come all
Just come as you are
Sit back, relax, read
And leave a comment please...
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Josh (Ben Kirkland's new stepson)
McKenzie and Courtney
Monday, March 17, 2008
Jonathon, Madi, and Jackson Kirkland
Bethany Corin Kirkland
Thursday, March 13, 2008
So, someone at work showed me this article after I told them about what happened the other morning with my son.
the other morning I was running late to work. I had to stop and get gas and I didn't really have time to do that. Noah wanted breakfast and I knew I didn't have time for that. He got up at 6 and it was now after 7. So, I was on my way to get gas and I start to explain to Noah that he would just have to wait until 8:30 to eat breakfast. He started crying. I said don't cry you like to eat with your friends. He was really crying. I said Noah I just don't have time to stop this morning, I have to get gas. He crying and says 'I am soooo hungry'
So, I say Noah I will park right here (at the pump), when I get out you lock the doors, Mommy will watch you all the way into the store, I will get you something and pay for the gas. The gas station wasn't busy. I was parked right in front. The Parkers had those huge widows where I could totally see him the entire time. He sat very still the whole time and just watched to make sure I was getting him something. I know what you are thinking. You are saying to yourself he is only one 3 year old you should have taken him in with you. However, that would be an incorrect statement. If I took Noah inside he would want to use the bathroom, decide over a drink, dally about what to eat, and I just didn't have time for it.
I wasn't really uncomfortable with him being there in the car. I could see him. He did really well. However, if he would have decided to get out of the car that would be a whole different blog.
As far as the article is concerned it is total crap. I think they took the not leaving a child in the car to far. Give me a break.
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Friday, March 7, 2008
Today I am feeling like a failure at being a wife and mother.
So, if you don't feel like reading a rant of nothingness I understand.
I feel like I am on my last nerve.
I am tired. I am tired of the day to day rut.
I am tired of my childrens rooms not being clean.
I am tired of the laudry not being done.
I am tired of my car not being cleaned out.
I am tired of my dresser not being how I want it.
I am tired of my tiny bathroom off my bedroom not being clean.
I am tired of my fridge not being cleaned out.
I am tired of trying to come up with a plan to get it all done.
I am tired of writing lists to get it done.
I am tired of fighting with my family for help to get it done.
I am tired of the shelf not being up in the girls room.
I am tired of the bathroom not being finished.
I am MOST TIRED of being the only one who seems to care about these things.
I am sick of being asked what I'm doing all day.
I am sick of being told all I do is sit on my rump all day at work.
I am sick of being told I don't do enough.
I am sick of someone keeping a tally of my movements when they sure don't take a correct tally of themselves.
I am sick of having to be sure not to rock the boat.
I am sick of trying to be everything and then falling short everytime.
I am so SICK & TIRED of the same conversation over and over where there is no resolve.
I love my husband I really do, let me rephrase. If I didn't love my husband I wouldn't still be here cause it's the only thing that keeps me here.
But sometimes..... I dream of being gone.
I dream of a place where all is fair.
I dream of a place where someone notices me.
I dream of a place where the man that I love can realize all that I do and am.
I dream of a place where people see that I share everything that I have with everyone that I love with not expectation of getting a share of what they have.
I dream of a place where a husband does nice things for his family just because.
I dream of a place where someone could just walk a mile in my shoes and then explain to me how to do it.
I dream of a place and time where I have it all figured out and I am really happy.
Happy is something I gave up on a long time ago. I have settled for even for a long time.
Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. I don't think so but maybe.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Ms. Watson (Bethany and Jonathon's first grade teacher) told me that Bethany scored top three in her class for the Bull's Basics test they had on Friday. It is 100 question addition test and they have 5 minutes to complete it. She got 46 out of 100. Jonathon got 60 out of 100.
Ms. Watson said that they have to be able to get 100 by the end of their second grade year.
I just think they are so smart. WAY TO GO!!
This is our family in July of 2005 having breakfast in the Crystal Palace with Winnie the Pooh and friends.