13 things 'Why it sucks being fat'

As you know I had lap band surgery on May 29, 2008. I went to see my Dr. yesterday and to weigh in. I have lost another 8lbs, for a total of 34 lbs.

I realize that I still have 195 lbs. to go, but I still feel like I deserve a pat on the back.
For those of you who do not think this is great Do you have any idea what 34 pounds is?

34 lbs of cocaine has a street value costs over 1 million dollars

A bag of 5000 wheat pennies weighs 34 lbs

Huggies Mega Pull-Up Training Pants fit boys with weight between 18 and 34 lbs.

I think you get the picture now.

This brings me to a post I have been meaning to write for sometime now.

13 things ‘Why it sucks to be fat’

1.) I hate to wait in line at the Amuzement Park to only find out when I get to the ride I won’t fit.

2.) I don’t like when we go to a restaurant and I don’t know if I will fit in the booth, I always ask for a table but some places don’t have tables, or they don’t have a lot of tables.

3.) I get frustrated when I come out of a place of business and a car as parked to close to my car and I can’t open the door wide enough to get in. I know this happens to others, but the frustrating part is me going in on the passenger side, and trying to climb over to the driver’s side. This is not a pretty picture.

4.) I just want to be able to buy clothes from a regular store. Nothing fancy. I would be happy to go into Wal-Mart or Kmart or JC Penney’s or any store for the matter.

5.) I worry when we go to the movies or concerts. I worry that not only will I be taking up the little bit of room I have, but that I am hanging over on to my friends room, or worst yet taking up a complete strangers room who is not very nice.

6.) I fret over airplanes. First of all I know going in that the seat belt will not fit and I will have to ask for an extension. I don’t ask for one because listen if the plane is in enough trouble to actually throw me around in the plane we are not going to survive anyway. I also think that the seats on the plane are so small. I know that I am taking up some of the other person’s space.

7.) Meeting new people makes me feel strange at times. I mean I know what they are thinking. They are thinking oh my how did she let herself get like that.

8.) People think that they are helping by trying to tell me how to loose the weight. I mean seriously I have been on every diet. My theory is if you really want to know how to loose weight ask a fat person they have tried it all.

9.) I just don’t feel good about myself. I mean my husband has never made me feel bad about all the weight I have put on. (thank goodness) But I am a smart girl. If I don’t like the way it looks, or feels than I know he cannot like the way it looks, or feels.

10.) We had a thing happen this weekend where a kid was mean to my children. I asked him to take me to his parents. He said no and started to walk away. I said come here right now. He said no. I started to walk towards him and he started running. Do I look like a person who can or would run. No. I just want to keep up with my kids or someone else’s when I have to.

11.) I want to wear the right size shoe. My feet had actually gotten fatter. I can really tell now that I am down 34 pounds because my sandal is starting to come off of my foot when I walk.

12.) If I ever fell down, or fell out of a raft while river rafting, or had to pull myself out of a burning car, or anything like that I want to know that 1 someone could get me 2 I could help myself 3 that later on in some break room some one would not start to tell a story that went something like ‘did you see that fat women this morning…..’

13.) I just really want to be comfortable in my own skin. I want the way I think I look, feel, and act to match what I see in the mirror.

I know that loosing weight will not bring world peace, or make me complete. I just think that it is a piece in my puzzle that I would like to change.